Listen, I'm an anxious girl. It's just who I am. I mean, I've gone through phases throughout my life.

Like, ages 3 to 10, I was very anxious. I had really bad separation anxiety from my parents.

I had anxious emotional attachments to inanimate objects like stuffed animals.

I was constantly worried about my safety and well-being. I was very anxious.

And then the anxiety sort of lessened and from ages like 10 to maybe 19,

I struggled more with depression. And then the depression lessened and the anxiety

came back. So for the last few years, ages probably 19 today, I've been in an anxious phase of my life.

Now, I'm hoping that maybe one day I'll have a phase where I don't struggle with either.

Wow, wouldn't that be gorgeous? Manifesting that for myself. But I've been in an anxious phase

for the last few years and I've gone through many phases with my anxiety. I had this phase where my

anxiety would manifest in sort of an obsessive way, like I would obsess over something.

So, for example, I would obsess over whether or not someone was mad at me, okay?

And that would cause me to have a complete meltdown.

And until I could confirm that they weren't mad at me, I'd be in a state of not panic, but extreme agitation. I wouldn't say I

was panicking about it because I later discovered what panicking felt like and it was very different,

but it was very upsetting for me. So I'd find something to obsess over. I would experience a lot of

anxiety and agitation about it and then eventually I'd resolve something to obsess over. I would experience a lot of anxiety and agitation about

it. And then eventually I'd resolve it in one way or another. You know, if I thought somebody was

mad at me, I'd figure out whether or not they're mad at me. If I was worried about somebody's

well-being, I would contact them to resolve it. And every once in a while, if I couldn't

resolve the obsession, whatever my brain

was obsessing over, quick enough, I would freak myself out to the point of a panic attack.

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