Hey, fellow traveler, welcome to Third Eye Awakening, a podcast all about spiritual and psychic awakening,

where we talk about the shift from 3D to 5D consciousness, the nature of time, space, the universe, multi-dimensions,

starseeds, the Akashic records, you know, all that good shit. I am your host, Amy Melissa.

Thank you so much for being here with me today. All right, let's do this. Hello, beautiful souls.

Welcome back for another episode for part two of the story of my beautiful, beautiful Killian.

All right.

So where I left off at the last, the end of the last episode was when I was getting myself ready one morning,

at 15 weeks exactly of pregnancy.

And suddenly I just felt a gush of warm liquid coming out coming out of my vagina and when I sat down

on the toilet to check it out it was blood and it was almost certainly amniotic fluid and my heart just i can't even there aren't words

if you've had a pregnancy loss then you'll know what i mean there just aren't words for how you feel

when that happens.

I just remember going almost instantaneously going into shock because I had not been anticipating that at all.

I was so sure that he was coming. I was so sure that he was that he was coming I was so sure that he was coming

that he was coming and it took me a while to to really even know what to do about it to be honest because having midwifery training

was like mostly a blessing but partially a curse it made my brain in this like highly emotional

time just default right into like clinical thinking basically I

started midwifing myself it's like it was just like a defense mechanism I I

didn't know how to feel what I was feeling and so I like instantly numbed out and put on my

midwife hat and started to I almost like split myself in two where there was

the part of me that was you know the mother and who was heartbroken thinking

that she was losing her pregnancy.

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