Caitlin Lost the Voice In Her Head

Proxy with Yowei Shaw

Yowei Shaw

Personal Journals, Society & Culture

4.8 • 589 Ratings

🗓️ 21 April 2026

⏱️ 63 minutes

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Summary

The case of the writer whose inner narrator who disappeared.

For most of her life, Caitlin Myer had a narrator. A voice that told stories, shaped sentences, kept her company, and made writing feel less like work than a way of being alive.

Then, after a concussion, the voice disappeared.

Caitlin could no longer write the way she used to. She couldn’t hear the music of her own sentences. And even as she slowly regained the ability to read, work, and move through the world again, she was left with a terrifying question: if the thing that gave your life meaning is gone, how do you find the plot again?

In this episode, Yowei finds Caitlin a proxy: musician and songwriter Greta Morgan, who lost her singing voice after COVID and had to figure out who she was without the voice that had defined her. Together, they investigate the grief of losing the thing that gave your life meaning — and how to find the plot again.

From the episode:

— Caitlin Myer — author of Wiving— support her on Patreon and learn more: www.caitlinmyer.com

— Greta Morgan — author of The Lost Voice — sign up for her Patreon and newsletter: www.gretamorganmusic.com

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Transcript

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0:00.0	If you had to vocalize the sound of this conundrum, what would it sound like?
0:07.8	It's that wind.
0:10.8	Hmm.
0:11.9	The wind outside your window?
0:13.7	Yeah.
0:15.5	Why wind?
0:18.1	It's not silence, but it's not saying anything.
0:28.9	Hello, Prexy listeners. We are back. I'm Yo-A. Shaw. On proxy, we believe no one is ever alone with their problem. No matter how niche, no matter how weird. Because statistically, somewhere out there is someone who gets it. And through the powers of reporting, we find them.
0:55.4	In case you haven't heard the show, what we do is put these two people in conversation
1:00.2	to see what they can learn from each other.
1:02.9	And hopefully, so we can have a good, but also awkward, but also beautiful time together.
1:09.1	Today's case, the writer who woke up one day with no words in our head.
1:14.6	What do you do when the thing that gives your life meaning disappears?
1:19.4	That's after the break.
1:41.9	I'm going to do. Ever wondered why some trends are just suddenly everywhere?
1:47.0	Newsflash, nothing gets popular by accident. I'm Brittany Luce, and on the It's Been a Minute podcast, I take the things you and I are both obsessing over
1:51.8	and show you the invisible forces behind the scenes that make us love it or hate it. Be smarter about
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2:15.6	Last year, I got an email with a subject line that got my attention.
2:20.8	It was just three words.
2:23.5	Inner narrator died.
2:26.6	The email was from a woman named Caitlin Meyer,
	...

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