You're on the virtue I won't bring you guys into my therapy session yesterday

I'm doing a lot of thinking lately a whole bunch. No, I know good ever comes of that

And she gets paid for this right but she asked me a question yesterday

That I answered honestly, but I'm really super curious how you guys would answer the same question

It's not loaded. Okay. It's not loaded

But just let me tell you my therapist asked me a question that I'm going to ask you guys

I can't not be on the question. It's really not. I just think it's interesting

And you don't got to answer it if you don't want to but let me tell you how we got to this place

So I'm working on a whole bunch of physically physical health stuff right now

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I told you I went I got some blood tests a couple of weeks ago. I'm not really my

My Apple watch my wearable is telling me that my cardio fitness isn't where it's supposed to be

I'm like working out all the time. I'm like how can that be right?

There are just some indicators on there that my body is stressed out when I don't really feel like I feel a

Whole bunch more stressed than anybody else right and for the most part

I think I handled it pretty well

But when my results of these tests came back my doctor is like you might feel one way

But your body is telling you something else

So a bunch of you guys had suggested and my doctor had also suggested not my my therapist

That when you grow up a certain way in like crisis situations that childhood trauma

Is really tough to shake really tough like you might emotionally be okay

But when you grow up a certain way you're always sort of in fight or flight mode and

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