Awesome, thanks very much for joining us on the Ornstein and Chapman podcast. I wanted to try and ask you something that as many questions as I could that haven't been asked to you over the last couple of weeks. One of the most extraordinary things I found I was at the

Palladium on Monday night and I've followed all of your interviews is that for a man so private you have done an

extraordinary amount of public appearances over the last couple of weeks.

What have you made of this road show so to speak? Well it is unusual for me and I thought I made the

book and the publisher trusted me so I wouldn't have done it. They asked me to do it because it's a way you can

have success with the book so I did it. I enjoyed some of it because it's a long time. I didn't speak to the media as well.

But of course it's the accumulation of it makes it quite a lot.

And because I wanted to regroup it in a very short period because I want to go back to work at FIFA and that's why maybe the accumulation is I overestimated a bit my strengths there.

You've missed us in the media that's nice to hear.

Reading the book listening to your interviews as well as the happiness about

the whole job and career you've had so far. I do detect quite a lot of sadness throughout, nostalgia, a bit of loneliness,

quite a lot of loneliness from your youth right up until today. Is that something that you felt and it almost led you to open up in

this book and this round of interviews? Well when you make a decision at the end of

a day you take advice from everybody, but at some stage you make the decision, you know, and so it is accept the uncertainty of a decision you make that creates that tension because what

creates stress is uncertainty and pressure from outside.

So that means it's a moment where you feel lonely,

but when you build the team on Friday night,

you know about the eight players, two or three you don't really know and it's when how you feel

so at some stage you have to make a decision and when you make a decision only you can do that

that so you have that feeling of loneliness sometimes.

Has that led you to daydream, have dreams, have nightmares about Arsenal,

about incidents, about matches and results? Yes, of course. about 24 hours a day when you sleep sometimes you wake up and you think about the next training session you think about the next game how you want to play and

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