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Hello, I'm John, great foil, and I'm sure glad to be here this morning. I'm nervous. I guess

it had to be expected, you know. What I'm going to do on this acceptance, and it's the biggest

part of the first step. It's the beginning of being in control of my own life. I can have

that control that controls today if I choose to work at putting the step one into practice.

It was hard for me. At first I was a controller. I wanted to fix everybody through this program.

I learned that that wasn't the way. I'll tell you a little bit about my past at the beginning

how I got involved in that one. I started out as a child living in the home of an alcoholic

like a father. I have three sisters that are alcoholics. I have one that died of alcohol

as a terrible way her liver went bad, and she got cirrhosis liver. It was very bad. She

was a great person, and I missed her. She died at 36 years old and buried her. It hurt

a lot. It was only 13 years old, because she was one I could talk to, I thought. She was

a lot older than I was, because she died at 36 and I was 13. You see the spand of ears

that my father had. He was married three times. He outlived them all. He outlived all the

kids, but the last three that are living now. Now through the acceptance that I know

through Allen and I don't have to carry all that guilt and all that, that I wasn't a

good person, and that's why I was treated the way it was by my father. It was a very abusive

person. I could never do anything right. When he would drink, I didn't have this program

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