Hello everyone and welcome or welcome back to A Better You by your host, Fernando Ramirez.

I first want to say, thank you so much for clicking on today's episode.

I have missed you so much.

And if you have missed me, I am so sorry for my absence.

Thank you for giving me another chance here

clicking on this episode of being curious in my life and hopefully enjoying this

episode I am very excited to catch up with you guys as as an old friend as like your

friend that like someone commented this on my YouTube video and they were like

Fernandez like the ex that goes to you that you welcome with open arms whenever they come back. And you know what? It's, it's showing up a mirror to myself and I'm embarrassed. I'm trying to make light of the situation, but it's unacceptable. It's unacceptable. I've been gone for so long. In reality, when I was thinking about this episode that I was going to film after so long from having a little hiatus, I was thinking about what I should post and I have a million ideas. You know, coming up with ideas is not something that is difficult for me. But as I was constructing the perfect episode back, you know, I was like, I want to say I'm sorry. I want to make this whole thing. I want to catch them up. But at the same time, like for the YouTube algorithm, for the podcast algorithm, like, is it great to come back with just me talking about myself and where I've been? Or should I just come back with a fire episode that they're going to be so excited to watch. And that might be more exciting for them than hearing me yap. But my mom, as a fan of my podcast and a consumer of my content, she was like, she's been on my ass, let me just say. But she was specifically like, Frenna, you cannot just come back and pretend like nothing happened. You need to go back on and say sorry to all the fans, people watching. Because again, she is one of my fans and she is pissed at me. So when you guys are like, Fernwa is's the new episode? Just know, not only am I receiving all of your messages, not only am I receiving my own internal voice being like Fern, get an episode up, but I've also got my mom up in my ear being like, girl, where is the content? So the messages are getting to me. Now, what I want to talk about in this episode, now that you're already here, hopefully actually, before I start this, I hope that you are well. I hope that you are peaceful. I hope that this year has been amazing. I cannot believe that we are almost at the end of 2025. I hope that this fall season has been great for you or wherever you are. I hope that in this moment, you are feeling calm, peaceful, collected, cool. And what I want to say is in this episode,

I don't really have a structure for it or a plan for it. But what I want to do is, of course,

give my sincere apology. Number two, maybe give some context for my absence. Number three,

talk about my absence, what I've been doing while I've been away. Just kind of give a little bit of reflection.

Honestly, I feel like this podcast is a place where I get to speak my mind, think my thoughts,

verbalize my internal experience.

And when I haven't been uploading podcast episodes, as I haven't for the past few weeks,

I feel like I am backlogged on thoughts and like I don't know

how to explain this. It's like if you have a consistent habit of journaling and word vomiting and

like getting your words out, that's kind of like what this podcast is for me. And when I haven't

uploaded an episode in a while, that means that I haven't had in depth thinking reflection time

that is like on video. I just haven't done that in a while. So almost

the practice feels foreign to me. And as you guys know, when you get out of a habit, it's hard to

jump back in. In fact, you start to develop like resistances. And I feel like that is something

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