When I thought about Chris's life I felt that there was a sense of alignment with who he was internally with how he acted on the outside.

I looked at myself and in that moment just recognized instantly I have no idea who I am.

I have no idea who I am. I am just floating and drifting. I don't know what my values are. I just didn't know myself. I was drifting 100%.

And perhaps people would say the same about Chris. I don't know, but all I could say he was very

comfortable knowing that he was who he was in his environment.

I didn't know what I was.

I was unhappy and I remember writing on this bit of paper which I have somewhere what could be more

important than being happy about feeling.

And since, of course I've learned

that there's so much literature and terminal,

is it being happy, is it a feeling of contentment or fulfillment?

I don't know.

You can tell me, I'm sure.

But I thought what could be more important

than just feeling good.

And I concluded instantly nothing.

I remember thinking smiling and laughing is just the best thing for me. I love it and I thought well how can I just do more of that?

You know I was curious about the world clearly I was happy to take off and have a look and meet people and so I was like well how can I kind of meet this curiosity and this desire to be happier?

What's the solution to that? So I began writing down things that I'd always wanted to do and I thought it was like a slap in the face. I was emotional.

A because of what happened of course with Chris, but also why had no one ever told me before take a moment to just think about things

that are going to make you feel good.

Hey there it's Light Watkins, your host of at the end of the tunnel, which is a

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