Hello my beautiful people and welcome back to the moments podcast. I'm currently recording this on a Tuesday afternoon

I just did my first brain scan and if you listen to last week's episode I told you a bunch about that

But it was such a fun experience and I can't freaking wait

I have my second scan tomorrow and then I don't have my evaluation until the middle of May just because I have a bunch of stuff going on which

I'm gonna tie that into why I'm making this episode. I'm about to enter a phase of my life

Where I get super overwhelmed and I have a lot going on and I have all these incredible amazing things coming up

and opportunities and places that I'm going things that I'm doing with the people that I love and I've learned

you know after doing self-reflection which also has a lot to do with last week's episode

that when I'm doing all of these things I get a tend to fall into a worst mental state

which I know doesn't really add up for a lot of people but in my head the more extroverted I'm forced to be in the more social I have to be

the harder time I have I don't know how to explain it but I think it's just because I gain energy from when I'm alone

and it's complicated because I also love doing things with people that I love but it just drains me faster

more of the story. The point here is I've seen a pattern within myself that when I have months where I'm go go go go go

it tends to be harder for me to be extremely happy naturally and that's not to say I'm not happy

again let me just emphasize the fact that I'm living my dream and I'm so grateful for everything that I get the chance to do

but I don't really have control over what it does to my brain and how it makes me feel emotionally

but this weekend I well this week I have my brain scan and then I have to take some prompt pictures on Friday

and then I have a festival all weekend and then I have a graduation party and then next week I'm in

Cayman Islands which is going to be so fun I'm actually so excited and then I have I don't know why I'm blinking

a bunch of stuff coming up and I'm going to be all over the place and I'm going to be a little bit exhausted

and the one thing that I've also learned has helped me through all of these episodes of just kind of having a lot going on is appreciation

and that's something I touch on in every single episode but I don't really ever give it a lot of time or it's own moment to shine

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