I found myself in my kitchen finally after just not even being able to get out of bed,

thinking, you know what?

This is, I'm just, I'm done.

And I thought it was this really kind of twisted, macabre poetic way to kill myself by, uh,

uh, just stabbing myself repeatedly with my own chef's knife.

It was this bizarre romantic notion I had of like,

what's, okay, everyone's, you know, killing themselves in all these other modern ways.

Like, what if I just take my favorite chef's knife? And I started writing this note, and I had the knife in my hand. And I remember this moment, I don't know what it was. Spirit,

God, angels, I don't know what it was Spirit, God, angels,

I don't know but a voice

and a presence

other than my own

posited a question

and said

do you really want to die?

I'm alive. I'm a life is up. I'm a Jason Robelle is the book.

I'm a life.

Jason Robel is the best-selling author of The cookbook and lifestyle guide Eternity.

He was the first plant-based chef with a primetime television series and has taught millions of people how to prepare delicious, healthy, vegan meals at home.

But then, he hit a breaking point.

Jason's struggle with depression inspired him to narrow his focus to the ways in which food

biologically and psychologically can affect our emotions.

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