I really understand now why people don't fucking make videos like this. This is hard to talk about.

Y'all about to hear all my darkest shit.

Let's do it, I guess.

Hi friends, so this week I'm gonna tell you a lot of things that I've never told anyone and I'm gonna be talking about

suicide and

death and very dark shit like the darkest things you can imagine so if you don't feel like you're in a place to hear about stuff like that

skip this week's episode and this is like your little trigger warning for all you to like to freak the fuck out about that

I think everything needs a fucking trigger warning. Okay, Dandy Lyon you saw the fucking title. What do you think we're talking about?

But for this episode, I'm gonna share the darkest shit that I've been through the darkest places I've been

mentally, emotionally, audit and then how I got out of it because

when I was going through my worst shit, no one talks about it. No one has anything to watch or consume

with the fucking truth and there's nothing to relate to. So my hopes and my intention by making this episode is to give inspiration

one, help you guys get to know me, but also to

be a place where people that are really struggling can go to when they have no one they can fuck them relate to because hi

then there and I am gonna go ahead and clear my ass legally. I'm not giving advice in this episode.

Nothing I'm saying is advice or telling you what to do because I am gonna be talking about the topic of suicide

but this is all my personal experience and my story. Like I said, nothing's advice. Don't try to come at me with no legal fucking bullshit. Everybody shut up.

This is a deep ass topic and I'll be fucked if somebody is gonna try and like come at me sideways about it. Girl

if you don't like real life go watch somebody else and the first thing I want to say is a little message. If you're

contemplating suicide or you have contemplated it before it makes sense why you would contemplate it because it's a relief from pain.

I've been there. I know it. But the only reason you have not acted on it yet if you've been thinking about it is because part of you

so desperately wants to fucking live and that matters and whatever it is you're going through

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