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Come, come, you say, no toil nor labor fear, but with joy when you're way.

So, up until November of 2015, you probably, from what I remember talking you about,

you were still hoping that maybe you would find out that Mormon man and maybe even get married and maybe even have kids and maybe even raise him in the church.

And you were still sort of in many ways still very much a believer.

I absolutely a believer. I guess you could say I was less active.

I hate all of those terms. I think the term Jack Mormons like ridiculous and offensive, but whatever.

I hate all the nickname boxes.

Yeah, because it's still like, I don't know.

But that goes back to me hating labels in general and wanting to rage and smate all the time.

But yeah, absolutely a believer.

My testimony, like I, you know, I would, I would tell anyone like no matter how active I am or no matter if I haven't been to award in a while, like I want, I want you to know like my testimony is the fire and my belief has never wavered.

I've never questioned that aspect of it. It's just been, it's my choices have been a result of wanting to survive and wanting to and trying to be happy with who I am.

So yeah, absolutely. I was a, I was a believer.

I met, I met a guy and ended up in LA and he is, he wasn't Mormon.

And that was a concern of mine at the beginning of that relationship. And that was last year.

But he was, he was a great guy. He was a French teacher. He's from, he was from France. So he moved here in his 20s. He was like 3036.

His name is Sebastian. And he was my first real like out open relationship.

My boyfriend and had him meet my parents, had him meet my family. He got him integrated into my, my friend circle.

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