All right, we are all set. We are recorded. There's a public call, right? So if you can just remember, I'm sure you will, to stay off names and places. We can take it from there. Okay, great. Then I'm Bob. Bob, it is. Do you want to read the message you sent me to start?

Actually, no, because over the past week or so, I kind of thought about the topic I wanted to talk about and I wanted to switch to something else.

Maybe we can still get to it later on, but I think I want to switch to something that's more important for me right now.

If that's okay.

It's a little bit unusual because normally I screen by topics.

So, okay, let's hear what else you have to talk about.

Well, it's an...

I have trouble opening up to people in general, and it's like I have a very strong defense mechanism that makes it very hard for me to be authentic.

And it's basically, it's so bad that even i've been in therapy for one year now

and i'm even having trouble after one year of therapy to open up to my therapist about well

things i want to talk about and it it's kind of a problem in general.

And I think that's the biggest problem

for me right now to solve to improve myself and my life,

if that makes sense.

I think I understand. So yeah, tell me more.

Well, I'm going to try to explain what happens when, internally, emotionally speaking,

when I come up, get into a situation where this happens.

So, for example, when, like in the past couple months or so when I'm in therapy,

and you know, my therapy asks me, is there something you want to talk about?

And I have like a couple of topics I want to get into.

And there's, I have a very, very strong like emotional resistance and i would even describe

it as i'm pretty much terrified to to open up about things and it's as far as i can trace my own

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