I was engaged at the time quite a while ago and the only time I've ever been engaged in fact.

After we were together for a while she said, you've got a problem.

And the person I was with before had this problem, and I'm not going to have it with you.

She was talking about my attraction to a woman, losing power when I see a beautiful woman or one that I thought was beautiful, or even

inviting to me sexually. And at first I said, I don't have a problem, I just a loving person,

this is the way it is.

When I'm in a hot tub with a woman who's loving like I am, we have sex.

Isn't that how everyone does it?

And she said, no, and you're not going to be with me unless you deal with this and I said okay

I don't think I have a problem but I'll look at it so I started to look at it and after

a while I thought well I told her maybe I have a problem, but it's a little problem, and I'll handle it.

And the more I looked, the more that picture changed.

And over time, I realized, well, this is something that's in my life. Yeah, this is big. This is an issue.

And then I finally came to the place where I thought, oh my God, I can't stop. I'm out of control.

Welcome back to at the end of the tunnel.

I'm your host Light Watkibbons.

And if you're listening to at the end of the tunnel for the very first time, this is a

podcast about Hope. And you're in for quite the treat by starting with this episode because

I'm interviewing one of the most prolific spiritual authors of our time. His name is Gary

Zucaf. Gary wrote one of my personal all-time favorite spiritual books which is called

The Seat of the Soul and I was

fortunate enough to meet Gary a few years ago at a wellness conference in Canada

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