Okay, so I guess it's a bit of a long story, and I'm not sure exactly where to start, but maybe I'll just

start with Young Me and kind of what went on.

I'm all the of some.

So my ACE score is 5, maybe a 5.5.

Physically. five,

maybe a five point five, physical, sexual abuse, not by my parents, but, you know, people who were around.

And there's one item about sort of neglect, I think. Not having food clothes, that stuff didn't apply, but what did apply on that item and this is kind of my

point five is not feeling protected at all. So I grew up in the Caribbean like I said and I have a younger brother and my parents were

married and we lived with my grandmother who was my dad's mom.

So both my parents worked throughout my childhood and we're primarily left with my grandmother growing up.

And it was just, I always had this feeling that like my parents didn't really like me.

Oh, okay.

And for a long time I guess I thought I was kind of wrong about that. But you know they did hit us.

That was a very normal way of punishing children in that culture. My mom was a

yeller and you know she I'm kind of having a hard time I think like just kind of

condensing things. Oh listen you don't have to condense things I'm I'm here for the

duration I am happy to hear whatever you have to say so you don't have to

condense you don't have to edit. I'm all here. Okay I just I find myself getting

sort of tense so I'm trying to relax.

Some of my earliest memories are of my mom complaining to me and I'm talking I'm probably like three years old you know I'm sitting in a room and she's folding laundry and she's complaining about my dad,

seeing other women and not coming home and I just like there was always this the way I think about it is like she was using me as a garbage can like she was always just kind of spewing out all of her complaints and frustrations and I was just there and expected to receive it.

Yeah, I've certainly been the I've certainly been an unholy bucket for quite sometime

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