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Shameless Leadership

55: IVF: The End

Shameless Leadership

Sara Dean

Self-improvement, How To, Business, Management, Education

4.7800 Ratings

🗓️ 5 September 2016

⏱️ 35 minutes

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Summary

This is easily the most difficult episode I have recorded.    I knew there was a strong chance that IVF would end without a baby. In fact, I planned for it. I planned to be relieved (I don’t have to be pregnant! I don’t have to nurse! I don’t have to be an exhausted hot mess!) I planned to be excited (Let’s book a European vacation!)    I did not plan to feel really, really sad.    We experienced a lot of sadness when it took so long to get pregnant with Vinnie 5 years ago. It felt constant.    This is different.    It feels final.   And so permanent.    There are things to be happy about with this outcome. There are things to be grateful for. But we’re not there yet.    We’ll get there.    But not today. And probably not for awhile. But we will be ok.   Here’s the thing… we won the lottery on September 23, 2012. We were given all we could have ever hoped for – a healthy, perfect baby.    That is enough.    Vinnie is more than enough. In every way.    So, from here we row our little family boat forward, one paddle at a time.    There will be some waves and things might feel a little topsy-turvy for awhile, but there will undoubtedly be amazing views, the best destinations, and all the love & laughter we could ever ask for.    Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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0:00.0

This is the Shameless Mom Academy episode 55.

0:07.8

Welcome to the Shameless Mom Academy. I'm your host, Sarah Dean, and I'm here to give you and

0:12.9

other passionate, dedicated moms the tools you need to bridge the gap between motherhood

0:17.0

and living the life of your dreams. I'm also here to help you be a little more

0:21.1

shameless every day because if you aren't building a life, you're extraordinarily proud of,

0:25.6

what kind of legacy are you building? So let's dive in. Hello, shameless moms. I'm always

0:33.2

happy to be here and happy to be here today, but I will admit I'm really nervous to record this

0:38.4

episode. I've actually been sitting in front of my computer for a while now, making my notes for

0:42.7

the show and trying to figure out how I'm going to get through it because I'm going to be sharing

0:46.5

the rest of our IVF story, which didn't end the way I expected it to. So I'm looking forward to

0:52.3

sharing it because I think that sharing stories is a crucial part of

0:57.0

us connecting with other people and us impacting other people's lives. But this will be a

1:01.4

difficult story to share. So let's just dive in. We got back our test results. So as part of our IVF

1:08.7

experience, we decided to do genetic testing because of my age.

1:12.8

So to get you up to speed, if you haven't gotten the most recent updates leading up to this

1:18.4

episode, after our IVF egg retrieval, we had six embryos. So that means six of the seven

1:26.6

eggs they retrieved from me were fertilized. And of those

1:29.9

six, one of them made it two day five, which means that and became a blastocyst, which means

1:35.7

that it was actually a viable embryo that they could then either transfer into me in hopes

1:41.9

of achieving pregnancy, or they could take a couple cells off of there

1:46.7

and biopsy them and then freeze the embryo. And the benefit of doing that with my age is that

1:52.2

you can test for chromosomal abnormalities. And so because we've had such a hard time getting

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