To be honest, I'm kind of not sure where to start myself.

Yeah, I mean, what would you like me to do?

Whatever works best for you if you want to read that's fine.

If you want to talk, that's fine too. to. I'll go ahead and I'll go ahead and read the

email. I think I'm in a relatively stable spot right now and I think it's probably prudent that I reach out and try to have a

conversation with you sooner than later. But in therapy for a few months and I have basically got

myself to the point of isolating so I can hopefully focus on getting

a job.

I'm working on getting a job hopefully soon with a job counselor at the VA.

The biggest thing by far that's bothering me is that I have been able to provide my kids a life they deserve.

Their mother, as well as other people in my life,

have seen me start to emerge from a depressed state and looking to move forward and get off

trash planet and have done everything they can do to overload my nervous system and send me back in

the self-destruct mode. I don't live with their mother and it was

wasn't a decision that I had come to lightly.

I thought it was better for them to not see us constantly fighting

and I could get into a

into a career that she was putting me through,

so I could finally get into a career where I would at least be able to have money for them.

My kids and I still spend time together,

but it's limited, and with them living with their

mother I still need to communicate with her. Every time I start to gently

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