To be honest, I'm kind of not sure where to start myself.

Yeah, I mean, what would you like me to do?

Whatever works best for you.

If you want to read, that's fine.

If you want to talk, that's fine, too.

I'll go ahead and I'll go ahead and read the email.

I think I'm in a relatively stable spot right now, and I think it's probably prudent that I reach out and try to have a conversation with you sooner than later.

But in therapy for a few months, and I have basically got myself to the point of isolating so I can hopefully focus on getting a job.

I'm working on getting a job hopefully soon with a job counselor at the VA.

Biggest thing by far that's bothering me is that I have been able to provide my kids a life they deserve.

Their mother, as well as other people in my life, have seen me start to emerge from a depressed state

and looking to move forward and get off

trash planet and have done everything they can do to overload my nervous system and send me back

in self-destruct mode. I don't live with their mother and it wasn't a decision that I had come

too lightly. I thought it was better for them to not see us constantly fighting and I could

get away from

the unnecessary fighting and arguing that she was putting me through, so I could finally get into a

career where I would at least be able to have money for them. My kids and I still spend time together,

but it's limited, and with them living with their mother, I still need to communicate with her.

Every time I start to gently open up the conversation about, hey, we need to come up with a plan, I still need to communicate with her. Every time I start to gently open up the

conversation about, hey, we need to come up with a plan so I can see the kids more often. She

immediately will try to steer the conversation into insults and everything else. I don't want to

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