529: Marisa Pond Calderwood - From Hinckley Scholar, to Depressed Mormon Housewife, to Happiness as a Post-Mormon

Mormon Stories Podcast

Dr. John Dehlin

Religion & Spirituality

4.6 • 5.2K Ratings

🗓️ 3 April 2015

⏱️ 94 minutes

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Summary

Marisa Pond Calderwood was raised devoutly LDS in Bellevue, Washington. She was deeply committed to the church as a teen, but she also excelled in school and dreamed of obtaining a Ph.D. in Genetics. After receiving the prestigious Gordon B. Hinckley scholarship at BYU, she married Carson Calderwood after her freshman year. Although she remained devoutly LDS for well over decade, Marisa struggled with feeling like she lost herself and her dreams once she married Carson, especially after going through the LDS temple and receiving the impression that women were less than men in the LDS church. Over the next several years Marisa had four children with Carson, but she also began having chronic headaches, and sinking deeper and deeper into depression. Finally, once Marisa began to allow herself to consider the possibility that the LDS church might not be true, she began feeling better about herself, her headaches subsided, and she and Carson found a happiness and an authenticity in their marriage that they never knew before. Today Marisa and her husband Carson are being threatened with excommunication for speaking openly about their doubts and disbelief. They expect to receive their summons to a disciplinary council within the coming week. This is Marisa's story.

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2:29.0	the truth is still intact. He witness verse what he believes he believes he's mildly
2:37.2	urbilage, but he's not neutralized and inferior. He's not not rationalized nor格ly
2:45.5	to kind of tell the world what their thoughts and views were and what the reasons were and weren't
2:52.3	for
2:53.5	You know for their loss of traditional belief in the church and so I
2:57.6	I read through that and really enjoyed
3:00.6	What Marisa had to say I
3:03.4	Thought it was really thoughtful and very interesting so
3:07.8	You know just as a sort of a as sort of an intro Marisa, you know, she was a hinkley scholar at BYU
3:15.9	Really thoughtful woman
3:18.8	She always wanted to be sort of some type of scientist. She had a lot of big dreams for herself and and
3:26.7	And I I think she still does but but we want to hear her point of view of what's happened with her in Carson
3:34.6	We also want to hear about her story and how her story plays into
3:39.9	How she's feeling now about the church and we also just want to talk about where the call the woods are
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