Okay, so yes, I'm all yours. I'm sorry to hear about these challenges. Let's dig in.

Where do I begin? I don't know. Well, I don't, so it's really going to be up to you.

Well, I mentioned that I cut my parents off in February in my call and request.

I just realized that they've been, like I, I realized I was physically abused to like,

when I became a mom three years ago, because my husband and I decided to follow peaceful parenting.

And I was spanked growing up and I thought that that was normal, but the like emotional stuff just

has not stopped. And like I tried to fix it with them. Since I got pregnant with my son three

years ago, I went to therapy because like, I realized like I just wasn't hoping well emotionally.

And so I tried to like, fix things with them, but it just became clear. I think they're like

narcissists and just don't want to be told anything. So I stopped talking to them and from there,

I've also stopped talking to my siblings. I'm the oldest of seven.

Um, three are adults. And then the other three are minors. So I don't talk to the minors just

because I can't. And then the adults have basically taken my parents side. And so I don't know where like

my rage is coming from. I know you say that like if you're getting angry at the wrong people,

it's because you're not getting angry at the right people. And I do think I struggle with that.

But sometimes I feel like I am mad at my parents, but I'm not sure how to like,

get it out, I guess. Right, right. Is it, is it coming out any other way that you know or for

can feel besides rage? Well, I mean, yeah, how is it coming out in your life as a whole?

Like if I was watching a documentary for your life, how about I say, oh yeah, she's angry.

Well, the most obvious way is at night. Um, I nurse my daughter. She's 15 months old.

And she still wakes up to nurse, not often. But and this doesn't happen often, but like,

like last night, I just got so angry like I can't control myself. It feels like I don't hurt her,

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