Combat outpost wilderness, they were just getting fucked up left and right.

Like left and right, we stayed getting all the casualties from them.

They ended day out.

And you get a casualty who took the blast of a vehicle IED.

You're a motorcycle and you try your best to save his life.

It's just ain't shit you can do to save his life.

Being honest with you, my days as a line medic as a, you know, a ground medic is over.

It's over, right?

But all you want is blood.

You see that kind of shit and all you want is blood.

What do you do with rage when you don't have any place to point it but inward?

When there is no satisfaction in revenge and no way to put things right.

Marcus Freeman spent nearly a decade as a combat medic fighting the insurgencies both in

Iraq and in Afghanistan with his healing power as much as with his weapons.

But some rungs can't be righted.

They can only be reckoned with.

And when you can't do the reckoning, the price you pay can be tremendous.

I was gonna kill myself.

I came home and I knew if I went into my house it was over.

So I walked into my backyard and I have a dog back there, the germansher.

And I was trying to work on making like a walking stick, right?

I was like, alright, just focus on making a walking stick.

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