I do not want to be recording this right now.

The sadness that I was using Coke to escape for the past year is back full-fledged.

And I'm sitting down and record this because I'm sick of it.

I want to come to a conclusion and maybe understand this together.

The past few days have not been fun, but I know exactly what's going on.

This is kind of me putting my soul in the hot seat.

You're going to have to talk.

Here it is.

Oh, God.

Shit.

Ha ha.

That was fast.

Hi, friends. Oh, wow. Wow. Okay. So the past, like, four days, I've been sad boots. And I thought it was me being sad, but I don't know how to explain it logically. I know what's

going on with myself, but like all motivation, all urge to do anything, any type of happiness has

been shot. I don't know why it's coming back right now, but I'm so like happy about it. It's

kind of cool that you're getting to watch it.

I haven't smiled in a minute. A couple of days. I've been all sad. Wow, you really want to talk now,

huh? You do. Is this what my soul was waiting on? Oh, God. Okay okay if this ain't the biggest sign of no matter

what's going on continue with the motions do it so me just making myself sit down in front of here

okay great i talked about it a couple episodes ago i don't let my responsibilities fall like

the things that i do for myself no matter how sad I am or how, like, down I am.

I've felt like the life has been drained out of me.

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