Happy New Year, 2020. Can you guys believe it?

2020 just sounds, I don't know, sounds futuristic. I still feel like 2005 is was like just a few years ago so

Pretty crazy. I hope everybody had a great New Year's Eve and I'm really happy that you're here with me for this episode.

So for this year and review episode I'm not going to walk you

through all of my highs and lows from the past year, but I do want to focus on one thing in

particular that a lot of you have asked me about and I think is really common

and that's walking through fear. And actually I would change that to walking with fear or feeling the fear and doing it anyway which is kind of like my theme to 2019

So I tend to not focus on all the good things that I've accomplished and how I've grown and I can kind of get like narrow-minded and only see what I didn't do or what others have done and what I can do better.

So at the beginning of last year, I was able to recognize that I had taken a major leap in leaving

my steady job and pursuing this digital platform full-time.

And I noticed how much more I had grown into myself in my fifth year of

sobriety but I also saw that I was letting fear dictate a lot of things in my life. So I wanted to be more social, but I was kind of letting this newly acquired social anxiety hinder that. I wanted to feel more comfortable speaking in

public but again anxiety was affecting that. I wanted to start a podcast but there

were so many factors pertaining to that including the two that I just

mentioned and the fact that I had no clue where to start and the fact that it has so much work, everything from researching guests to

planning interviews to then conducting the interviews to editing to graphics and

so on, just so much work. So I was able to see how saying no to things that made me

uncomfortable was not in fact comfortable because it made me feel bad

about myself afterwards.

And I was able to see that the only way to overcome these fears was to just take contrary

action and do them anyway.

So I had a conversation with my husband where he told me that some of his greatest successes,

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