in our lives, just the day-to-day interactions that we have, or whenever we're thinking

internally, our own inner monologue, how many steps removed that is from what's really

going on and how automated our behaviors are without us even really realizing it?

Like, even if you're aware to an extent and you're not... our behaviors are without us even really realizing it.

Like even if you're aware to an extent and you're trying not to have habituated responses to things

that could really use a more thoughtful

and more well-intentioned and well well rounded response, you can still just fall into the

same trap and go into autopilot again and again and again. And so one of the things I've been

doing is trying to, in as many moments as I can,, like hear what someone is saying to me, but also, like,

listen to it and think about why they're saying what they're saying, and then noticing

like how I'm feeling it and how my body and mind is reacting to what I'm hearing.

And then questioning that.

You know, like, well, why am I feeling this way?

Why?

And I know this sounds pretty like, it sounds like a lot to deal with in each moment.

And I don't mean to make it say it's got to be a deep pondering thing

but I think it's just for me it's been interesting to just linger on on that for a moment

as you know experience is happening just kind of thinking like all right well because you can

hear someone say something to you.

And then you just respond to it.

You respond to it just based on whatever you're, the information or the feeling that you have in that moment and then you carry on.

But to me, what I've been doing is, yeah, just like really listening and then going,

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