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So what happened when you did come home?

Well, felt a deep depression.

It was hard being alone and my parents were helpless to save them, I think.

I tried very hard.

But you, anyways, you already, you've had that mantle, you have that idea that you're

protected by concord or huge courses of angels and legions of angels and chariots behind

you and chariot with flaming swords and all these things and you come home and you're

just like, armor is off and you're nothing and you go back to a singles ward in a very

highly populated Mormon community and you're nobody.

Which is cool, I guess, you're humbled.

He's in Redlands.

In Redlands, yeah.

So shortly thereafter I got really depressed.

I lost my girl.

I realized that at the time I didn't want to date.

I was, I liked the idea of it, but I thought that the girl that I was kind of hoping to marry

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