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You know, this kind of feeling of always being this scrappy kid with rat's nest hair and

the coulaces and the summer and yet there I was in Hollywood and everybody thought I was

fancy and the dichotomy of that and also the feeling that everybody has in Hollywood or the majority

of your only as good as your last film and when are they going to discover there's this kind of feeling of no

matter how successful you got everybody everybody was always this is the one that's going to make it come crashing down

or this is when they're going to discover it's the Emperor has no clothes and maybe the Emperor has clothes

but they all feel like they have no clothes because everybody or a lot of people the reason

you're drawn to Hollywood is because you want to recreate a new reality not just yourself

but what draw somebody to need to like me to be more comfortable in somebody else's skin than

my own for many years to discover who I was in pretending to be someone else.

Hmm, that's actress slash novelist Meg Tilley talking about the world of Hollywood.

We talk with Meg about her wild childhood, her lifelong love of reading and books,

her years as an in demand award-winning actress and what it's like for her now.

Miss you reflects on those years and that lifestyle and settles into her new life, quietly and serenely

writing pulse pounding thrillers.

Meg Tilley on acting, writing and Hollywood today on the history of literature.

Okay, here we go. Hello everyone, I'm Jack Wilson back from my vacation if you care about that kind of thing.

Does it really matter where I was a voice in your ear?

I was gone for a couple weeks. Did it matter to you? Well, I suppose I'd like to think it matters,

at least the little where I am in real life. It reminds me of that line of John Updike's

when the interviewer asked him about writing about sex and said something like,

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