Welcome to Feathers My Hair, a teen mom deep dive podcast. I'm your host, Liz Bentley.

Hello. Hi, happy new year. I cannot tell you how late I'm recording this episode. Oh my goodness. It's after 6 p.m. on Saturday night.

So less than, I mean, like, what, six hours before this episode comes out? This is very late for me.

I've had a tough week getting adjusted after break. I'm in that phase where like, you know, when you look forward

to things a lot and then it happens and then you have like dread afterwards because you feel

like you have nothing else to look forward to you, that's kind of like where I am. And I, like,

I've had therapists like try and help me with that but it's just the way my brain works unfortunately.

So I have been like truly just struggling this week and I woke up this morning. I slept in.

I got up. I took notes on the episodes. I then was like, I'm going to clean my room a little bit.

And I, like, dusted my room. Then I went and cleaned the bathroom. Then I was like,

I should work out. And I walked on the treadmill. And then I was like, huh, I haven't really eaten

today. And I'm going to be hungry if I try and record an episode, eat some food. Then I was like, I just really want to take a bath. Then got in the hot, hot,

hot bath and then had that like post-bathing where I actually felt worse because it was like

overheated. So I had to then lay in my bed for essentially a full hour on my wet hair. Well, I had my hair in

like a topsy John, you know, what are those johns called?

Topsy, I don't know, turban twists that I've been using for like 20 years. I seriously got rid of

one recently that had to have been 15 years old. I'm pretty positive. I got it in high school, if not really college. But I like laid there.

So now my hair's all fucked out. You know, I'm still just like not feeling great. I'm feeling

asthmatic. So I took my inhaler. I have like what was diagnosed and me as a child is called exercise induced asthma.

And it's like really not an issue for me except maybe once every few years I'll have an asthma

attack that's like they're not even that serious. The issue is, is that when I get bad

asthma attacks, or like when I feel an asthma attack, come on, I start to panic, and then I have an

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