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Oh, I remember one other thing that I had wanted to mention.

So I think you brought up not feeling perhaps like mom wasn't around as much as I had wanted.

So I wanted to touch on that a little bit.

As a more recent development in the emotional process and the relationship status.

And as I've been going through some other issues and I've been doing a lot of emotional searching

and have been reading a lot about attachment theory and how adults relate to that.

And one of the things that was profound for me was that I accepted that it very well may be

that I have some abandonment issues from mom not being around as much.

And I think it may have contributed towards me being a pursuer in various relationships that I have now.

And when I learned that this is something poignant for me,

it was interesting the emotional response I had because it was like I just broke down.

Just completely had a total meltdown, an emotional meltdown, crying and sobbing and calling my mom.

And oh my gosh, I think this is real for me and I never occurred to me to even think about this.

But I think it plays an important role in my life and my mom and I talked about it quite a bit after that.

And so I do think that it's kind of an ongoing process of discovering how it's been affected me.

And the ways it still continues to affect me and how I've dealt with some of it and yet haven't addressed other parts of it.

Yeah, no, I think that's very insightful.

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