So I'm curious, how did you first get into meditation? How did that find its way into your life?

Oh my God.

The moment my life changed. The moment my life changed. I'm in this, I'm in this stage of my practice as a meditator that I am more grateful than I've ever been for meditation. I feel almost as if like I'm

romancing meditation right now. There's this new deep love and admiration and attraction I have to my

practice. So it's it's really cool to answer this question because I remember when I started my God that was not the case

You know is very very triggering and very unsettling

Meditation is a word I remember hearing as a child that I was always drawn to and I had absolutely no idea what it meant.

It seemed so strange and elusive

and like, you want me to sit still and be quiet.

And so for many years really starting in my very young life I would be on the

lookout for that word and anything that was connected to it and very intrigued by it but I did not think it was something that was really

even allowed for me I didn't even think my life could sustain trying something

like that. It seems so strange. But I was always chasing it. I was always looking

for it. But I first started to practice it, probably right around

2012-is, 2012-13. I was trying it on my own a few times. I got somehow I got

reconnected to that word and I just said I'm just going to try and at the time and where I was living I couldn't find a one-on-one teacher so I just did a couple of online things and I would try it and then I would stop and I wouldn't do it again for months for a year for and then I try it and then I'd stop and then I'd stop and then I finally reached a point in my life that I felt not only had I hit a wall I felt like I was in a jail cell I felt like my soul was in cinder blocks and I didn't know what to do about any of it and

a girlfriend of mine had recommended she she was like, why don't you do a detox?

Why don't you do a detox?

I'm like, what is a detox?

Okay.

What?

And I Google, like, detox, comma, help me, comma, save my life. And the very, very, very, first thing that came up in my Google search, and this was right around 2012, was a photo of Deepak Chobra.

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