This is jockel podcast number 260 with echo Charles and me jockel willing good evening. I go good evening

So I

Was in my bedroom

Sitting on my bed and I was

Renching in pain

Or I guess the proper word is anguish it had been two days

Since Seth died

And the the five stages of grief were not kind to me

The first stage of grief denial was over in about 15 seconds

I've had so many friends die that I

Know without question what it means I

Know how quickly it comes and I know that my friends in our line of work including Seth

We dance with death all the time

And just a day prior one of my friends and mentors in the seal teams master chief Mike faculty had died

And all this was taking place right on the 11th anniversary of

Mikey Montsor being killed in action in Ramadi on September 29th 2006. So denial didn't last long I

Neither did the the so-called bargaining stage

Because I know there's no there's no bargaining with death

I

Know what it is I know it is irreversible irrevocable and I know it's 100% final

Which

brought me to the next two stages

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