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So, Eric, we've spent some time talking about sort of an overview of OCD's group velocity.

We've talked about, you know, you're up bringing a bit and your pre-mission time and your mission time.

So, let's talk about what happens after the mission.

Sure. Well, my first issue coming home for my mission was that I was convinced I did not fulfill a quote honorable mission.

So, when I got the certificate of successful honorable mission completion,

I, that immediately, became an obsession where I was worried about, you know, sometimes you're in gospel doctrine or elders quorum lesson,

and someone will say, could all of the return missionaries raise your hands?

And so, I was starting to prepare how I was going to deal with a life of not raising my hand,

because if I raised my hand and said I completed a mission, that would indicate it was an honorable mission,

which, therefore, would be a lie.

And so, that, that was kind of the first, the first one I had.

So, it just continues, basically.

Oh, yeah, it just, it continued.

And the last compulsion I had on my mission was with a, this is so sad.

This is in the blasphemous arena, blasphemy arena.

I had a long flight home and I sat next to a little out of nine or ten-year-old Jewish boy.

And I thought that if I didn't convince him that Jesus was the Messiah,

that I would have failed my entire purpose for serving a mission.

And he was, he was alone, he didn't have his parents.

And I sat there and I just kept saying, this is so sad and so funny at the same time,

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