Welcome back to what have you. I'm Rachel Jankovic. I'm Becca Merkel.

And here we are in the darkness of a nighttime. That's how committed we are to getting

you know a podcast how committed we are is it's

October now I think the last time we're not talking about that let's talk about

our diligence in showing up tonight. Well we did we showed up and here it is guys.

It's really made of it what you will. It's been, yeah, we decided the thing is, days are trickier for Rachel. I'm a little more fluid during the day I can make things happen.

No, Bica's more fluid during the day I can make things happen. No, Becca's more fluid during the day

if she's here for the day, if it's not a day

when she's scheduled other things.

I'm just saying weeks or harder for me

because it's like, oh, I won't be here. I don't know Bega I think we should in this conversation when I said

How about the evening you said?

Okay, I'm trying to get things done in the evening so the evening is not available because I'm trying to not, I'm trying to do things in the evening.

So, you know, I think that's the real struggle is both of us are always trying to get something done.

Oh, I've been this sort of uphill battle.

Yeah, I just have been enjoying the fact that I think wherever you are and whatever age you are

and wherever, whatever your life has done with you. The Lord always

seems to be given you a fresh new look at self-discipline. That it feels to me

like we keep coming back to the same subject matter but with like a whole new approach.

Oh yeah. Like where you're like this time.

And because I've been, I felt for a long time like the way my life operates very typically is well

actually well it feels like you're stuck in traffic and then periodically a lane

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