189: What if you couldn't stop shining?
This Is Actually Happening
Wondery
4.6 • 9.9K Ratings
🗓️ 4 May 2021
⏱️ 52 minutes
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Summary
“That feeling that you get when you find out an important piece of information, that ‘aha moment’ was happening constantly. I felt as if somebody put my brain into a microwave.”
Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits
Episode Summary: Growing up in a home of abandonment and neglect, a teenager finds a grand, new reality in the rabbit hole of addiction until they can no longer find their way back.
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Content/Trigger Warnings: psychosis, drug use, child neglect, childhood trauma, explicit language
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | This is actually happening features real experiences that often include traumatic events. |
| 0:04.2 | Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode |
| 0:07.6 | and for more information about support services. |
| 0:17.8 | That feeling that you get when you find out an important piece of information |
| 0:24.9 | that aha moment was happening constantly. I felt as if somebody put my brain into a microwave. |
| 0:33.7 | From laundry, I'm Whit Missildine. You are listening to this is actually happening. |
| 0:48.4 | Episode 189. What if you couldn't stop shining? |
| 1:07.9 | Hey, prime members, you can listen to this is actually happening. |
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| 1:15.6 | Hi there, wundry listeners. Hannah and Sruti here from TrueCram Podcast Redhanded. |
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| 1:55.7 | When I was born my parents weren't married. I don't think they wanted to be together but then |
| 2:16.9 | my mom got pregnant with me and my parents did end up getting married for a short period of time |
| 2:23.5 | but I always felt like things were not solid. I grew up with my brother who was seven years older than me. |
| 2:34.2 | My brother was from a different relationship and so my mom favoured him and my dad favoured me. |
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