188: What if you spent four years inside?
This Is Actually Happening
Wondery
4.6 • 9.9K Ratings
🗓️ 27 April 2021
⏱️ 56 minutes
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Summary
“I was just left fighting this invisible thing inside me, the root of which I didn’t know.”
Producers: Whit Missildine
Episode Summary: A woman grows up with an idyllic childhood in Scotland, when a phobia of mysterious origin begins consuming her thoughts and eventually her future
Today’s episode featured Rachel Balcarek. You can find out more about Rachel on Instagram @bearscenario.
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Content/Trigger Warnings: emetophobia, agoraphobia, panic attacks, depression, explicit language
Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
Music Bed: Sk”Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | This is actually happening features real experiences that often include traumatic events. |
| 0:04.2 | Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode |
| 0:07.6 | and for more information about support services. |
| 0:17.8 | As deep as I tried to dig into my memory and my past, |
| 0:23.3 | there was just nothing we could think of that was causing this |
| 0:27.8 | and because there wasn't, I was just left fighting this invisible thing inside me, |
| 0:34.0 | the route of which I didn't know. |
| 0:44.5 | From laundry, I'm Whit Missildine. |
| 0:46.7 | You are listening to this is actually happening. |
| 1:02.5 | What if you spent four years inside? |
| 1:10.4 | Hey, prime members, you can listen to this is actually happening. |
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| 1:57.3 | I grew up in the Highlands of Scotland and my parents separated when I was under a year old, but my mom |
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