The game changer was when I started filming my performances, I would go to this place called

The Drake Hotel and they had a spoken word kind of community, like and I had their own online forum,

they had everything and then you would sign up.

And very much like I guess comedy clubs you sign up and then they pick you and they tell you you're performing.

When I started putting it on YouTube and this is like early, like the first year, second year of

YouTube, like everybody would see it. And then people start showing up. And I get this

email and it's like, hey you Khan man, it said I read this blog this comedian wrote about you and I clicked the link

this is like 2010 and a comic that didn't know me and wasn't there wrote a blog

spelling out how I must be doing this for the money, which I really wasn't making,

and all of a sudden it's this viral point that I am scamming people as like a cult leader for money and I was too young to handle that and like something

and me needs to die to handle this because it was so overwhelming and I got so much hate and I felt so horrified.

But I had enough Tony Robbins in my body to know I'm about to learn a new thing.

We're saying that we want unity, we're saying that we want solutions, but

actually our behavior is proving otherwise because the moment someone

asked questions was shame them. The moment someone deviates from what is seen as acceptable. We docks them, we humiliate them.

I'd fallen into the trap of identity politics and then I started writing about it bit by bit in my notes in my journal and that eventually became my declaration why I'm leaving the cult of weakness.

I had a crook in my neck that I was going to the chiropractor on a regular basis to get fixed.

He put it into place I could turn my neck to the right.

Quickly though, after a while it becomes sedentary again, it becomes stuck.

And I couldn't have full rotation to the right.

I could go to the left, and I couldn't go to the right.

So when I finally said yes to establishing a spiritual community.

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