185: What if you kept shaking hands with death?
This Is Actually Happening
Wondery
4.6 • 9.9K Ratings
🗓️ 6 April 2021
⏱️ 54 minutes
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Summary
“I was forced into being vulnerable, I was forced into being present, I was forced into existing suddenly with my lights turned on.”
Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli
Episode Summary: Grappling with her identity and disruptive health anxiety, a woman reaches in adulthood with a dream job and strong community, when suddenly her worst-case scenario becomes a reality.
Today's episode featured Natalia Provatas. Natalia is a Writer from Los Angeles. You can find out more about her on Instagram @chola4hire, and on her website, nataliaprovatas.com. Since we recorded this episode, Natalia's treatment has been going well, she is living independently again and working on her Memoir Ghosting My Death Doula, a series of funny essays about her battle with breast cancer.
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Content/Trigger Warnings: graphic medical descriptions, near death experience, cancer, explicit language
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | This is actually happening, features real experiences that often include traumatic events. |
| 0:04.2 | Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode |
| 0:07.6 | and for more information about support services. |
| 0:16.4 | I was forced into being vulnerable. |
| 0:19.4 | I was forced into being present. |
| 0:21.6 | I was forced into sort of existing suddenly with my lights turned on |
| 0:25.7 | and I think that's what happens when you face death. |
| 0:29.7 | All the weird habits and regret and anxiety, there's no room for it. |
| 0:34.5 | No time for it. |
| 0:44.4 | From laundry, I'm Whit Missildine. |
| 0:47.7 | You are listening to this is actually happening. |
| 0:50.4 | Episode 185. |
| 1:02.8 | What if you kept shaking hands with death? |
| 1:06.9 | Hey, prime members, you can listen to this is actually happening. |
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| 1:18.4 | Hi there, laundry listeners. |
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