This is Jocco podcast number 159 with echo Charles and me Jocco willing good evening. I go good evening

There's a

A terrible feeling

in the gut

That I've only felt

While I was overseas in

Iraq and it's it's

This deeply distressed kind of sick feeling and

Literally feel it in your gut literally feel it in your stomach in my stomach and it's not it's not the fear it's not fear

It's not it's not the fear of death

because

When you get to a point when you kind of accept that death is a

Possibility and you're okay with it then that fear kind of goes away

And it's not the fear of

One of your guys being wounded to kill it's not that either

Because even that fear even that fear you you you kind of get a control of that fear

Because you know you can't dwell on it because you know if you dwell on the fear of one of your guys

Getting wounded or getting killed then that's gonna detract from

The very thing that you're supposed to be doing that will most likely prevent your guys from being wounded or killed

If you're dwelling on that fear you won't be doing the things you should be doing like planning and training and preparing and

inspecting and reviewing and leading

So even that fear while it's persistent and heavy and potent

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