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You read a quote to me last week. I don't know if you have that still available.

I'm not going to ask you to read it right now in case you want to drop your headset and go find it

because I feel like it really captured well sort of the place you came to spiritually.

I can paraphrase it. I can paraphrase it.

Okay. Go ahead. Yeah.

Ultimately, what I was experiencing was this feeling that something wasn't right within me.

Something was off and it goes back to about longing to know God and to know more.

So that's what it was. It was some vega is what they call it, some vega.

And it means they tell this story to describe it about how they give you, they give a dog a bone.

And he rips the bone apart, but he realizes there's no meat on it.

But he's been nying on it forever. Finally, this covers there's no meat on it.

So he turns away from it and goes looking elsewhere.

So something vega means pretty much this term to turn away from.

And I felt like that's what had happened with me with the church.

You know, I really ripped that bone to shreds.

And finally, you know, I started to look away for other things that fed me.

And that journey is so internal.

And that journey through Eastern studies, through looking for human consciousness and discovering,

because as Mormons were so clear on who we are, you know, I am the spirit.

I am living in a body. I will someday reunite with it forever.

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