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Welcome back to the Overcover podcast.

I'm your host, Jennifer Lopez.

Thank you guys so much for choosing to listen and watch to today's episode.

If you guys clicked on today's episode, you know what today is.

It is my mother's 13 year anniversary of her passing. I am pre-recording this because your

girl is busy and has things to do. But these are what my emotions have been throughout this year.

Why do I get emotional and like the chills right away when I talk about this?

And like what today's episode about is about is about being,

grief being a little bit different this year because if you've been a fan or you have

been part of the podcast group or

have seen and listened to the episodes for years now, you guys know that I do this episode

every year. This is about the fourth one, I think. If not, I'm not mistaken. But last year,

I did do an episode and you guys can rewatch it um but it was an episode

where i was drinking and it was almost on the same day whatever this that's the point is

is that it's a year an annual episode last year I did um

drink and I do want to acknowledge that also if you guys have been a part of the podcast

family for a while that I did realize a lot that I was drinking a lot and I didn't like recognize that for a long time because I

used it as something that to help me cope, um, which wasn't healthy. I had to learn that I couldn't

just use alcohol and weed to really cope with my emotions and just use it

as an excuse to just to help my anxiety. And because I'm sitting here or talking to other people,

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