You are listening to the Take a Break podcast with Rachel Hart episode 122.

Whether you want to drink less or stop drinking, this podcast will help you change the habit from the inside out.

We're challenging conventional wisdom about why people drink and why it can be hard to resist temptation.

No labels, no judgment, just practical tools to take control of your desire and stop worrying about your drinking.

Now here's your host, Rachel Hart.

Well, hello everybody. We are going to talk today about what to do after you've had too much to drink.

And I'm not talking about, hang over cures.

I'm talking about what you need to do in order to change the habit.

Now I will tell you, I'm so familiar with this, I cannot even tell you, I can't even count the number of times in my life where I woke up and the moment that my eyes opened.

I just thought, oh Rachel, you have got to be kidding me.

You've got to be kidding me that you did this again.

I will tell you now it is so nice, it is so amazing to never have to worry about this, to never wake up in a puddle of shame about what happened last night.

But that used to be my life all the time.

Why did I drink so much? Did I really say that? Oh my god, I just want to die.

And I wanted to die, not just because physically, I woke up feeling like crap.

I wanted to die because of how I felt emotionally.

In fact, that was really more painful for me.

More than the hangover, it was the emotional pain, the embarrassment, the humiliation, the shame, the regret.

And I'll tell you, I did for a very long time what most people do.

I just wanted to hide. I just wanted to crawl into a hole.

And if I couldn't hide, let's say I had to go to work the next day, I would try to pretend like everything was normal.

But of course, everything wasn't normal because I was in a pool of negative emotion, trying my best to hide that from the world.

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