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basket. We hope you enjoyed the podcast. Have a great day. My name is Mark, and I'm an alcoholic.

I'm also responsible for the things I've done and the things I'm probably going to do.

So there's, you know, I have to remember something that I need to make amends constantly.

It's not something that I do and walk away from.

There's things that happen in my life now.

And I also have to, I have a forgetter.

It forgets to make amends to myself.

You know, it forgets things like that. And I'm very

tough on myself. But, you know, I heard somebody say about the shortcomings and the

shortcomings and defects of character. They said, if I have an opportunity and I don't put my

hand out, that's a shortcoming. If I have an opportunity and I don't put my hand out that's a shortcoming

if I have an opportunity and I put my fist out that's a defect of character so anyway

fear is what brought me here fear is what keeps me here and fear is what keeps me here. And fear is what I work on every day.

You know, I left a pregnant wife in the middle of the night,

and I never came back.

We talked over the phone and I, you know, didn't even see my baby born.

Drinking was too important.

I drove my dad's father in, my father's car, into the ocean for unknown reasons.

And, you know, this was a pattern of behavior. It's funny in retrospect, but people were harmed, you know, this was a pattern of behavior.

It's funny in retrospect, but people were harmed, you know.

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