Hello beautiful human beings of the internet. I'm Lauren Elizabeth and it is

2020. Can I get a hollay, Louie? What is up everybody? I feel like my audio

sounds weird, but maybe it's just because I haven't heard myself on the bike in a

while. I don't know. I don't know what to think. I don't know what to feel. I don't

know who I am. So it is 2020. It is a brand new year and let me tell you I am just

so freaking ecstatic that it's a brand new year because I was just I was fucking over

2019. I'm not gonna lie. I just uploaded a YouTube video where I kind of just like

open and honestly talked about how I've been feeling and kind of looking back at

2019 and you know setting goals up for the new year. So if you watch that video

first of all thank you so much because it means a lot to me and second of all

you should go watch it if you haven't and third of all it's gonna be kind of

the same like mood because as you know the mood is usually based on my mood until

you know we get to your mood and then it's my mood and then it's a whole

confusing like just situation. Anyway so kind of in the same mood of just I'm

feeling just super honest but also super motivated and why those two kind of

conflict with each other is just kind of because being honest is kind of about

admitting that I looked back at 2019 and kind of felt like what the fuck like

what did I do with my life and obviously you know when you're watching someone

online and everything it can appear that they have all their shit together and

that everything's great and dandy and truly that I just don't think it felt like

that and I think that genuinely time flies and you know you look back at the

year and all of a sudden it's over and you're like wait what the fuck did I do so

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