Now that I don't have my office anymore. I record these at my mom's house and I'm in her office.

And she has hanging up on the wall.

I don't even know what they would you'd call them from my bar mitzvah my aunt and her

They took pictures of my childhood and and my brothers for his and made not a centerpiece but I think I'm almost positive it was hanging up or at the front of like the party because you if you didn't know a bar mitzvah is the day that us Jews

they take we take our 13 year olds and we we tell them all of our secrets to run the world. It's a very important

day and we get to have a party because now we can run the world. And I'm just looking at it at mine, thinking about how I run the world now. And there's one, there's a picture of my brother and I and I'm wearing this Abercrombie and Fitch shirt.

Now I wasn't as fat as I got obviously. I wasn't't a 12 year old 10 year old 300 pound kid thank God

But I was chunky and I felt I was insecure and I just I wanted to be cool and so I got this

Abercrombie and fit shirt and I remember I hated it because the words Abercrombie I think it was just Abercrombie

I have terrible eyes like it's like 10 feet from me and I can't see what was written on the shirt almost

positive just an Abercrombie and it was stitched on and the stitching would tear me, I don't know if you can see, I'm wearing an aw shirt from the office.

It was like when Andy did the 5K and the office and his nipples got chafed, my entire chest would be on fire from wearing this shirt.

And I would wear it occasionally because back then, back when I, I don't know, late 90s, early 2000s,

Abercrombie and Fitch to me was like the cool kid store and I wanted I remember going and buying it and at the Natick mall and I thought it would

first I don't know if it would make me cool or make me fit in I don't know what I

thought or made me fit in. I don't know what I thought. But I'm just looking at it because I was trying

to figure out how to talk about what I wanted to talk about today and it's about being happy. It's a weird topic.

I think I'm, I'm I it's very weird. I I'm both very happy and then I can also be a kind of a blue kind of a negative kind of person but I was just thinking about it like

even going back to that shirt I've always I've always wanted to fit in I always

wanted people to like me and I wanted to be just like I got happier I guess.

And I had a very happy childhood but right around that age probably right around like late elementary school, early middle school,

it's when you start to figure out like, oh, like, maybe I'm not the best athlete,

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