Porn Free Radio, Episode 2.

Welcome to Porn Free Radio. I'm Matt Dobschutes.

This is a new podcast aimed at creating meaningful connections with people who want to get free from porn addiction.

This weekly podcast will provide strategies and tools to live 100% porn-free.

And this week, we continue to talk about coming clean and the emotional benefits of getting

started.

In episode one, I talked about the first time that I came clean, I wrote a letter to a woman

who worked in a ministry in town and essentially

exposed myself to her and told her about my problem and actually included a $10 bill that I was

planning on buying porn with.

And it was a way to keep myself safe.

And it was sort of my first step in telling someone.

As I hinted in episode one, it wasn't my last step.

It took many more years of sort of coming to the end of myself, coming to rock bottom, and really bringing others

into my struggle. Now, no conversations or confessions were harder than those with my future wife,

probably 10 or 12 years after I first reached out to that speaker, I found myself in a marriage and I was still

struggling with pornography. And so every time that I told my wife about a struggle or a fall,

it definitely was a really hard conversation. And one conversation I remember in particular

was I had been unemployed for a few months and I was doing a job search. And you know what it's like

when you're unemployed. There's kind of this loneliness factor. There's a lot of rejection.

You have to really continue to affirm yourself, that you're worthy of love, that you are a good employee, that you have good skills to sell, because as your home alone, you just are really susceptible

to that lie that you're worthless or that you're not hireable. And so I was really feeling that.

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