Hi everybody I'm in a mood. I'm in a mood. I feel a little silly I feel happy a little sleepy but I'd rather be happy and sleepy than wide awake and anxious.

And I have an exciting week ahead of me.

My dad and Lola and Bentley, her dog are coming in town

and we're doing the holidays together.

I'm actually really excited for it.

And y'all, I'm desperately searching for structure in my life.

I'm desperately searching for structure. I've had none and I've had very little supervision.

I've had very little supervision this month. I've been alone in the apartment and I had a week of

isolation. I just wasn't very mentally well and when I fall into mentally ill spells it's nice to have a

friend and roommate in the apartment just to have eyes. I don't need to have someone

watching over me but it keeps me a little bit more in check when I know that

there are eyes on me and this month wasn't my best month I'm a little

disappointed in myself to be honest because I had such high hopes for myself I

had this allocated amount of time that I was going to be alone and I wanted to use it to my

advantage I wanted to really dive into the internet and content creation again but I

felt very private this month I felt less than inclined to share which I think is an

interesting strategy for someone who creates content on social media but really

for anyone who has social media like we all do.

You know how you will post on social media just to keep people updated with what you're doing?

You do something fun, so you want to post photos,

so everyone knows that you're doing something fun.

Something I found myself doing recently is when I'm doing something really fun, really funny, really cool.

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