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to a place of letting go touch the fact that fear is at the very fabric of

your being, touch that at some point in time. And my experience was, is in waking up to that,

seeing that I had been afraid my entire life regardless of what I was projecting, right? Seeing that I had been afraid my entire life regardless

of what I was projecting, right?

Seeing that

and experiencing that is finally

where I said, I cannot

and I will not live this way anymore.

And somewhere in the middle

that I guess is when I realized I had been

in self-reliance my whole life

and even those years in AA.

And somewhere in the middle of the realization that fear was at the fabric of my being,

I just said, I quit. It no longer makes any difference. If I got a job, fine, if I don't find.

If I got good health, that's fine. I just don't care anymore. But I couldn't

have that experience until I woke up to the fact that fear was at the fabric of my being

drove me in every area of my life all the time. I was paralyzed with fear, which accounted for a lot

of years of drinking and then accounted for a lot of years of depression in Alcoholics Anonymous.

So again, let's go on with this issue.

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