Will I Ever Trust Myself Again? (Yes. And Here’s How…)
Sober Awkward
Victoria Vanstone
4.8 • 533 Ratings
🗓️ 7 December 2025
⏱️ 49 minutes
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Summary
In this week’s Sober Awkward, Vic and Hamish dive into one of the biggest, stickiest, most awkward questions in sobriety: Can I actually trust myself again?
Vic opens up about those final blurry days of drinking when she couldn’t even trust herself to say “no” to a jelly baby, let alone a vodka soda. Hamish admits he’s never trusted Vic with a map, a tech problem, or his childhood sticker collection — fair enough. But what happens when that mistrust is turned inward?
Together, they unpack how alcohol chips away at your self-belief, how broken promises and panic attacks can shrink your life, and why sobriety is less about perfection and more about proving (slowly, quietly, consistently) that you’ve got your own back again.
Expect awkward confessions, tips for rebuilding trust with yourself and others, a bit of trust trauma from the 1980s, and a brand new Sober Awkward anthem from listener Sean, who just celebrated 1 year sober (you legend, mate!). Check out Seans band @conflictmanagerband
Oh, there is some awful and somewhat offensive chat about rims.
Of course there is.
Enjoy!!!
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| 0:00.0 | The cattle's boiled, Vic. |
| 0:03.7 | Great, perfect timing. Just a dash of milk for me, please, mate. |
| 0:09.5 | Here you go. Should we get started then? |
| 0:17.3 | Have you ever woken up on a Sunday morning and said, I'm never drinking again, |
| 0:21.4 | and then found yourself waving 50 bucks at a barman by happy hour? |
| 0:25.1 | Are you wondering why everyone else can stop at one, |
| 0:27.8 | while you head to a dodgy after-party with a weird bloke called Disco Dave? |
| 0:31.6 | If so, it might be time to take a deeper look at your relationship with your reliable social crutch, alcohol. |
| 0:38.1 | On each episode, we'll investigate our own dysfunctional dealings with booze |
| 0:42.2 | and find out if it's possible to stop this deeply ingrained habit |
| 0:45.4 | before things get too messy. |
| 0:47.5 | Yep, we're going to open up a shame shed of humiliating drinking stories |
| 0:51.1 | to help you understand why waking up from a booze coma each weekend with a |
| 0:54.9 | kebab sticking out of your top pocket might actually be negatively impacting your health. |
| 0:59.9 | Hamish and I are here to delve into what it's like being sober. An unwanted warts and all look |
| 1:05.3 | into why giving up those cheeky pints or putting down those mummy wines will make you feel happier, |
| 1:12.5 | help your anxiety in mental health and turn you into the most sparkly authentic version of you. |
| 1:16.5 | Won't that mean I become boring though, Vic? |
| 1:18.3 | Well, Hamish, we'll just have to wait and see. |
| 1:20.9 | I'm Victoria Vanstone. |
| 1:22.6 | I'm Hamish Adams Cairns. |
| 1:24.1 | And this is sober awkward. |
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