Welcome to Day Yourself Instead, Day Yourself Instead, what does it mean to Day Yourself Instead?

I'm just gonna learn how to love myself and that's it.

I got a DM on Instagram from a girl the other day

that asked me how I'm able to make friends so easily in New York City

and I immediately opened the message and replied to it

because honestly this direct message really hit home for me.

I have struggled with meeting genuine real people that I wanted to keep around

and in my life for my entire life.

I always had trust issues when it came to meeting women in my life in particular

but I never really spoke about it openly with anyone because I was terrified

that one no one would be able to relate to this topic at all

and they'd think I'm the problem and that I'm crazy

and two, I thought there was something actually wrong with me

that I was not able to properly bond with women in the way that I wanted to

in the way that I saw it being portrayed all over social media all the time

or just walking past a bar restaurant in New York City on the weekends

and just seeing groups of women bonding and hanging out and having wine.

It just looked like everyone was so close

and had the best friendships and I was just always on the outside.

But what I didn't realize is that what you see on the outside

is not always what's actually happening on the inside

and I figured that out because of TikTok.

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