I'm trying to say the right words because it's hard.

I can't find the right words to share the feelings.

So on that time, it was a time of deciding between dead and life, something like that.

We have a phrase in Afghanistan, the time of dead and life or life and death, life and

death, the time between life and death, because we don't know who will die, those who are

leaving or those who are staying.

My name is Poshra Siddirli, I am 23 years old, I'm a journalist from Afghanistan and in

August of last year I left.

This is Radio Atlantic, I'm Cladina Bade.

This week we return to America's withdrawal from Afghanistan, the painful choice it meant

for the women of one family and the harrowing journey that came from that decision.

On that time, I was thinking of my sisters and my mother.

Can you tell me about your sisters?

This one is quite with others, but the noisy and annoying sister to me.

We have two years age gap, but we are like twins and we have a lot of mutual taste in everything.

From clothes to music, to movies, to foods, I mean she was like my best friend.

Can I ask everything about me if you want from Osman?

I am always telling my mother, if one day I die, go and ask all my secrets from Osman.

I could never have imagined being apart from Osman and she feels the same.

I should say that Osman is a pseudonym that we are using to protect your sister.

Yes.

And what's your other younger sister like?

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