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Well, I'll let you all in on a little secret about me and that is I have always battled with deep feelings of insecurity.

Some of you may say, well, we already knew that. Thanks. You just made me feel more insecure. I mean, it really has been something that's haunted me all throughout my life.

I felt like I'm not good enough. I'm not going to measure up and on and on and on. In fact, in the early years of speaking, I was very, very insecure. I became a Christian in college and was a relatively new Christian when I started to teach the Bible.

I hadn't graduated from seminary yet and didn't know that much. And so I always felt like I'm not qualified or not adequate to share the Bible.

And so the first few times that I tried, I really didn't do a very good job. I used to get so nervous. I'd actually throw up in a bucket in the garbage can before I don't do that now. I just stropped in my mouth and I swallowed it really.

But I was just joking. I would block. My face would get blotchy and Amy would think I was going to die. I just was so nervous. And so afterwards, I'd feel so bad. I'd be like, oh, you failed. And so I wouldn't go to the door, which is where the preachers went when they did a good job.

So the people could come by and say, nice sermon, pastor. Nice sermon, pastor. Well, after about my fifth time, I actually thought, I did okay. I mean, that wasn't bad. So I decided to go to the door. And I'll just be honest.

I was really looking forward to people saying, nice sermon, pastor, nice job. And so the very first lady that came up, I was standing there waiting at the door in this little sweet lady, but about so big late seventies or so. She walked up.

She pated me on the shoulder. I could just feel her about to say nice sermon. And she said, nice try.

She looked at me and she said, if you keep practicing, you can be a preacher one day.

I just fell. I mean, it drove those insecurities even deeper into me. And maybe some of you can relate. I'm just not like I wish I were.

So and so they're good at this. And I'm not. And I just don't feel that good about myself. It's a little bit like.

Do any of you ever watch the show, the bachelor, any bachelor fans, bachelor fans? I hate that stupid show. I can't believe it. Anyway, it makes me.

Anyway, every now and then though, I'm flipping through the channels. I come across the bachelor in every single time.

There's this girl in the limousine. She just was rejected and didn't get her stupid rose.

And so she's in there in the camera's tight. And she's bawling her brain.

It must be something wrong with me.

It must be something. And I'm going, yeah, there's a lot wrong with you.

I mean, you just talk to the guy for five minutes and you thought he was the one you're supposed to marry.

There's something wrong with me. Yes, do you want the whole list of things wrong with you?

Or just the top 10 things that are incredibly obvious to me right now.

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